i hate both my sis.. irritating selfish creatures!!!! the blueberry bread is me, daddy and mummy buy home de lor.. when i came home frm giant, 6 blueberry bread left 2 onli leh.. both of them ate 2 each.. i was like how can they be so selfish.. in the end i nv get to eat the blueberry bread.. when my dad came home frm shop & save i ask whether i cld eat one of the blueberry bread.. u noe wat my dad told me.. he said no.. it his.. i was like shock u noe.. even my dad is so selfish.. to tink tt i help him the whole day and he treat me like tt..
then nvm.. tt blueberry bread thing i dun take it to heart.. then when i was eating my "dinner" my elder sis did a super horrible thing.. she looked at my CRM journal and started editing it.. i mean it fine to help me edit.. but after editing it she laugh and ask my younger sis to look at it too.. at tt moment i didn noe wat were they laughing abt until my younger sis ask me what was looking going.. i then realise they were laughing at my report.. they even shout out all my mistake for my dad to hear.. then my dad scolded me for my poor eng.. he said how m i suppose to work in a bank with such lousy eng.. then my mom added in askin my sis to teach me proper eng..
i was really super upset and angry.. i shouted get lose at my sis.. i felt really super hurt for them to treat me like tis.. i shut myself inside the rm cos i noe i will cry.. it created a deep wound in me.. i noe frm young my results are not as gd as both my sis and i noe very clearly tt my parents look down on me.. frm young no matter wat i do i always dun get my dad's approval.. even when i representation my sch for poa competition.. i always heard my dad telling me tt i m not doing my best.. i even aimed to study like both my sis to get at least 3.4 for gpa for my last 2 sem.. i did all tis jus to get my dad's approval..
i sometimes suspect that i wasn my dad's real daughter cos i'm very diff frm both my sis.. they 2 often treat me like maids ordering me to do tis do tt.. no matter how hard i try, i will always end up crying by myself.. they nv noe how deep they had hurted me..
as time goes by, i dun like to stay at home.. home is jus a place for me to slp, eat and bath.. i no longer felt warmth in my home.. but they dun understand how i feel.. they dun even noe wat is going thru my mind..
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