having headache tis past few days.. massive loss of blood.. lolx.. jus now very scary.. saw my houses spinning.. faster sit down close eyes.. open eyes tt time still got abit then i faster close bac.. after tt open ok le..

got a feeling my body not as strong as last time le.. stay up late too much i guess.. no choice.. everybody also staying up late to rush assignments.. jiayou ba all my friends.. i noe we can overcome all tis de.. graduation is jus afew mths ahead.. JIAYOU!!

somehow i have been tryin to bury myself with work to stop myself frm tinkin abt wats going on in my family.. it seems to me like i drafting further away frm my family.. but i dun really noe wats going on in between tt is wrong.. haiz..

sometimes i wonder y i have to make myself look strong outside.. how i wish i was born in the past where gals dun need much education.. jus marry a gd husband can le.. lolx.. impossible for now i tink..

~My Melancholy~

YEAH! i win the war.. wahaha.. my dad giving me pocket $$ le.. althought he reduce my allowance but its better then nth.. lolx.. actually i alrdy prepare for the worse le.. as long as he still pays for my bus concession can le cos tt one really very ex.. but since he gave in (partly), i dun mind.. but i still have to be mindful of how i spend cos my allowance reduce le..

but come to tink of it.. m i really selfish? like wat he said to my mom tis morning.. m i really not a understanding gal? m i really tt bad? ok.. i promise to really study hard and let my parents have gd life nxt time.. m i really tt bad? haiz..

i really appreciate those who offered to help me.. THX!! makes me realise i got true friends everywhere.. hehe..

i also appreciate wat dear has done.. trying so hard to make a gal who cried until like puffer fish laugh.. i tink onli u can do it.. lolx.. reward for u (MUACKs).. lolx..

~My Melancholy~

I HATE MY DAD!!!

From young i didn blame him for not being a rich daddy..

i didn blame him for not being able to fulfill my wants..

i try my very best to meet his expectations, hoping to earn alot of $$ to let them have gd life in the future..

i'm happy as long as one family is united and tt all needs are met...

but i'm truely disappointed..

very disappointed..

As i grow to understand more things each day, i realise he is the cause of me not being able to fulfill my needs..

I HATE YOU!

u dun even wan to provide me wif pocket money now..

i really dun understand y.. its not as if u lose ur job..

my pocket money dun even exceed $50 per wk..

i didn dare to complain cos i noe money hard to earn..

u make me realise not all parents will give the best to their children..

i wldn wan to include u in my future plan anymore..

DISAPPOINTED!

Labels: DISAPPOINTED..

~My Melancholy~

3 weeks of sch pass le.. but somehow i still find myself slacking.. cannot slack anymore le.. have to buck up le.. the submission date of afew ica1 coming le.. have to also start revising le.. cos got afew modules i dun really understand.. haiz..

last 2 wks can be said to be very eventful.. lolx.. i sort of quarrelled with dear.. somehow is cos of some silly things.. lolx.. tinkin bac i really find myself very silly.. lolx.. silly me quarrel over silly stuffs.. lolx.. but we'r fine now.. hehe.. ppl can stop worrying le..

Things aim to finish by todaë:
- Tutorials
- HRM ICA1
- research on IB ICA1
- find a suitable shirt for dear's dad as his present (difficult)
- finish compiling PFPLI tut2 ans (half done)

JIAYOU JANICE! lolx.. JIAYOU FOR ALL MY SWTHEARTS OUT THERE!
*gra (if u are lookin).. dun slack anymore le.. try to finish all ur tuts by wkends..

~My Melancholy~

Dear got fever last nite.. was so worried abt him lor.. everytime say going fall sick liao then now really sick.. 38.3 somemore.. so big liao still dunnoe how to take gd care of himself.. lucky now ok le.. fever no more le.. wanted to go his hse to see him de lor.. but he dun let.. somemore i forgot to top my ez-link card then inside left with $2 onli.. haiz..

ytd was my last day of attachment.. can say to have a mixture of feelings.. happy cos i no need to wake up early everyday liao then can go bac to sch to see all my friends.. but sad cos i made some very gd friends there like songren and augustine although augustine left le.. poor songren have to suffer alone there.. oh ya.. also got a np intern call liwen.. a very swt and lovely gal.. lolx.. actually i dun mind attachment longer but nvm.. now muz chong report liao.. really hope my report is up to standard..

but tis few days see the report really sian lor.. still got half of it not completed.. actually started early de.. but somehow as my workload got heavier, i entirely forgot all abt the report.. lolx.. got a testimontial frm my supevisor but somehow it doesn really seems useful.. lolx.. nvm.. i will still pass it up and hopefully it do help.. lolx..

~My Melancholy~