i feel like crying.. i am trying so hard to study for tml de microecons test and my mom keep asking me how to msg my sis when i taught her like 3times le.. y she always do tt to me.. i'm not her onli child but she always ask me to do tis and tt.. do she noe tt i m always deprive of the chance to use the laptop at nite cos both my sis will always snatch it to do their reports n projs.. do they noe tt i also need to use the laptop to study sometimes.. i dun understand y they can do tis to me.. it doesn mean tt i dun study in nus then i dun need to use the laptop.. another prob is both my sis onli noe how to use the laptop but dunnoe how to maintain it.. i'm always the one doing the disk cleanup and stuffs.. always me..

jus suddenly feel tt wat i have done for tis family have not been recognize..

my family members and ppl keep saying tt i m not pressurize in terms of my studies.. i felt hurt.. i dun show tt i'm pressurize doesn mean i m not.. my pressure is not where far from my sis.. at least their degree is frm nus.. mine's not.. i have to fight for a first class honors for my degree to be considered same lvl as their degree.. i'm working very hard also.. but nobody seems to realize it..

i noe i shldn be feeling tt cos God place everyone on earth for a purpose.. its jus a sudden urge to say out how i feel cos i'm feeling abit tired.. studies tired ppl mentally..

Dear.. i miss u.. i need ur shoulder to rest b4 i continue wif my journey..